So, the excitement and fear of the (will they/won’t they) proposal letter and its reception over and done with, I settled back into wondering what on earth I was actually doing. “What’s it all about?” I wondered, not for the first time, in my notebook. Why, when all the other artists had left (aka moved on), was I still here?
This is what I wrote:-
Belonging vs. Being Out of Place
Being Here v. Wanting to be Somewhere Else
Authenticity v. Disguise
Nature v. Civilisation
Childhood v. Adulthood
Freedom of Expression v. Repression
It’s also about lounging about and having fun!
These are all themes in my life.
It’s also about the frustration of discovering there are some things I really don’t like about myself – but try as I might, I can’t seem to change…”
And we all know what they say about leopards…
To conclude: there’s a certain amount of stuckness going on in my life (not to be confused with Stuckism, which is something entirely different), and so it seems apt that I should be ‘stuck’ up a tree for a year.
That’s why she’s up there, Mummy.